Why, why, why, why

Way to go and plan the kids for something you did. I get you don't remember doing it. That doesn't check that you did it.  And saying the kids are home and did it, is a copout.  Thanks for reminding me why I ready don't want to talk to you anymore. 

I even told you what the issue was last night and what did you do? Denied that you do anything
I told you I was going to point out that you are condescending to me, every time you were.   What did you do? You did it in front of the kids, so rather that take the bait of the fight you are starting, I just kept my mouth shut.

I know a woman who married a real creeper of a guy. Lots of people like him, but he's creepy, and she knows it.  When asked why she is with him her reply is "I took one for the team".   It's kinda how I'm feeling.  Every day. Every time he acts more and more like the man he claims to hate.

I'm done

Have I ever told you I don't like holidays?

Actually I hate them. 
Hate cleaning to have people you don't like come visit and make snid comments.
Hate cooking just to have family, ya know the ones that are supposed to love you, criticize your food.
Hate the way I get treated if I do something everyone else is doing, because how dare I.
Hate the way everything I say is wrong. How people that have known me my whole adult life act like I'm being difficult or weird when I try and be myself.
I just want everyone to go away.
You want to know what I'm thankful for... I'm thankful that I can go home and be alone and be myself every once in a while.

4am

Four am is too fucking early.  I know this because my body hates it but is now so used to it that it is waking me up before the damn alarm.